Saturday, July 26, 2014

1 br8fast 4 2

两份英式早餐
一个人吃
所以
一份作午餐
另一份
晚餐
其实那食物
蛮不错的
咖啡也
很香美
只是
这个单人食客
也太过
那个了

***

想起那次回家乡
约了两个高中朋友
晚餐      叙旧
结果变成了      
辩论之                 非死不可           
久违的聚会如此收场
难免有点惆怅
唯一感到欣慰的是
她们如此生龙活虎
口沫横飞
活着      就是
好事

***

今年有好几场地婚礼
今天就有一场
不过我给            逃了
有些      我是后知后觉
知道后
“为什么没有人跟我讲的?”
(好像通知邀请我是理所当然的)
“不是没有讲,是你没有非死不可咯!”
(这句话            前后逻辑不是太对吧?)

这样的理由
我还有什么可以说呢?
难道      要告诉他们
这个世界
有样东西叫       手机?
有样程序叫       电邮?
有个职业叫       邮差?

其实
很想告诉他们
某学妹
知道我没有非死不可
所以就哇死吖
预约我明年参加她的婚礼
某同学
知道我没有非死不可
所以就短信我
邀我十一月参加她的婚宴
还有一个
八宿妹子哥们
四年没有联络
突然间短信我
邀请我参加他们十二月的婚礼

***


所以说
人生
知己难寻
良偶难求
若有一二

知恩
珍惜

Thursday, July 17, 2014

“It is great to have a companion whose strengths cover my weaknesses and whose love covers my sins.”
Edward T. Welch

那是《脑袋惹的祸》的
作者的谢序中
给予他太太的谢词
我想
他们是
幸福的

过去几年里
爱过最深的她
已经
去年
也许跟另一个她
有那么一点机会
然后
她飞了

这一年下来
心想     
也许对我们都好
不够爱她
不懂爱她
越认识她
越觉得
我不配

也许
她不是我的伴
也不会是
总觉得她和他 
好像(快?)在一起了

也许

还不懂得

所以
还得等

我愿意
求主帮助


Wednesday, July 16, 2014


结婚了

知道她
要结婚时
还想说到底
去不去她的婚礼
心底深处
也许不想去
所以口头上推说

没有请

那天到了
我不需要想
因为她
没有请
而且
学校有任务
(来得真合时)
也去不成
心底深处
也将这事            算是
放了

也许有点后悔
也许该去
偶尔会想
如果去了
会为他们做些什么
主祷文      
我为他们献上的
祝福


愿天上的父      
创造男人女人
设立婚姻的上帝
使这婚姻成圣
叫上帝的名因此被尊为圣
愿上帝的国
降临在这家庭
愿上帝的旨意
藉这对新人的联合
行在他们一生人中

赐个他们每天
                     
的粮食
使他们不但有爱情
也有面包
饶恕他们的罪
使他们也彼此饶恕
保守他们免于试探
拯救他们脱离各样破坏爱约的人事物

因为
国度      权柄      荣耀
全是主上帝你的

他们的婚姻
荣耀您的圣名
阿门

Monday, June 23, 2014

忘老

人老了
竟然忘记了

是会变老
变慢

是会改变的

Friday, June 13, 2014

Why do we have Dress Code (in MCKL)?!


First attempt: simple but brutal answer
Because this is MCKL (or any other institute or agency or whatever), so MCKL has the authority to make rules for anyone related to it. Since we decided to have dress code, so that is. Period.

Second attempt: more philosophical, sociological answer
Have you ever think of why man (I mean human kind when I use ‘man’, aint not sexist here.) wear clothes? Have you ever think of why we wear formal on first day, your lecturers or college staffs wear formal every day, when you attend some important dinner or ball, you get dressed up (ever think of why we use the word ‘up’ instead of ‘dressed down’?) Why no sane person will ever wear bikini to shopping mall and go for a movie? Why, and how, do we actually define some set of wear as ‘formal’, ‘casual’, ‘informal’, ‘smart casual’ and etc.? What is the standard, or if there is any, for clothing?
So I believe there is a standard, although this standard is, to certain extend, subjective and relative to culture to culture, from a civilization to another. But nevertheless, there IS a standard, the objective absoluteness is that there IS a standard, however that standard is. Hence we have a culture here, a standard here, and we hope that this standard will produce a certain degree of respect of ourselves and people around us.
How does our dress code show respect to you? First, you are precious, and not all people deserve and have the right to see most of the thing, if not all of the thing, that God had fashioned you. I know Malaysia is a hot country, KL is a hot city, and all MCKL-ian are hot, so we always want to wear less (including myself). But we do not simply expose our body parts, especially sensitive part, to others who are not our wives or husband. The people who do that, we usually identify them as insane people as those we see on the street. (no offense, they are poor people and need our pity.)
Second, you want people to look at you at the right place. Yes, I mean the RIGHT place, not the wrong place. Imagine if you are talking to a guy, and he keep looking at your cleave because you wear a bit low, how would you feel? I’m not saying that guy should do that, (I am a guy!) but we are sinner, we are weak, and ladies, we need your help to be a gentlemen!
Thirdly, we hope that keep you all safe as well, both guys and girls. Not just physically, but psychologically and emotionally as well. I have seen enough hurts because of relationship, sexual violence. We know there is a lot out there. I do believe that this clothing will help.
Now I want to end this section with this: some time ago I saw a post on Facebook, some one of my friend, a Christian sister, she shared a picture. In that picture, a young pretty lady hold up a sign board, saying, “Don’t tell us what to wear, tell them not to rape!” When I think of that, I feel very sad, very very sad. I am a man, I know what goes on in man’s mind. I did not rape any woman before physically, but if I am honest with myself, and to you all, I’m not sure how many times I had committed that violence in my mind. Such sinful person I am, no? I would not blame the woman for wearing less, for what the man did is just wrong. Man was created with stronger physique so that we can protect, not to abuse, woman. But who can save us, men, from this lust? Jesus Christ is the only one that saves. He died for all our sins and resurrected three days later to show that He has the power to overcome death, where death is the consequence of sin, hence he also conquer the sting of sin as well. If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation, the old had past, and everything is anew.
But dear ladies, may I say something to you? Let me be honest to you, that if you would wear a little bit different, you will really help me? I know you have your freedom, you have your right to wear whatever you want, you have liberty to choose to cover or expose your body, of which created by God in such a way that is certain to catch a lot of eye balls. But after you hear how weak we men are, will you care and sacrifice a bit of your freedom, that for the sake that we can be better men, that you wear a bit more? Will you help us to be a real man?

Third attempt: biblical answer
Well, i need more time on this. Catch up with me on this another day ;)

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Neutrality?

Is science neutral?

Suppose I have a note of 100 dollar. Now I am assuming that all of us know ‘good’, ‘evil’, ‘neutral’ properly.  Many would say that the money in itself is neutral, it just depend on how I use it. Certainly there is some truth in that statement. Indeed if I use the money to sin, to do things in contrary to the holiness of God, to do evil, to harm other, then it is not good. It is evil. Not many will against this idea.

But I think not just that. I think that the note in itself constitute good or evil, but not neutral.

First consider the origin, or source of the note. That is to ask, “How I come to posses the note?” Do I posses it by force, through robbery, fraud, cheating, or other illegal means? Or I gain it through hard work, or a gift from other? The note does not exist by itself. Someone, or something, must bring to its existence. It doesn’t just appear in my hand, unless divine intervention happened, it must have a source or origin. Is that source good or evil?

Next we also consider the note in itself. If it is fake, that is, it is not genuine note that is produced and distributed by authorized body, then how can we deem it as neutral? Even if it is real note, supposed it is stain with oil, worn out for certain reason, tore into pieces, that it may not be used, or not in the original form that it supposed to be, would we still consider it is neutral, that it is neither good nor evil?

So we see other than the purpose/how the object is used determines whether an object is good or evil, we need to see the origin/source of the object and the object itself to determine if it is good or evil.

Now let us look at science. 

Many of us in these days think that science is neutral. Scientific discovery of the world is neutral, and it is good if we use those knowledge to serve the well being and benefit of society, and bad if it is used to destroy (although not all think that using technology to create more powerful weapon is bad). So I shall not spend much time on these, although there is actually something that worth looking at, such as how do we really defined ‘well being and benefit of society’.

But I want to look at the motive of doing science. Why do we study the phenomena of the world? Do we do it to glorify God, to know how majesty and awesome is His knowledge, creativity, power? Or do we do it just to satisfy our own curiosity, to show that we can conquer the natural world intellectually, even to prove that God does not exist so that I can do what I want how I want to? For the LORD is God who searches through our heart, and weigh us according to our thought, so science is not neutral when the motive of doing science is considered.

Also, scientific knowledge itself is not neutral. It is either in accordance with truth or it is not. Bad science is not good science. Moreover, our scientific knowledge or discovery or formulation or methodology is indeed moral action. If this world is really created by God, that He is the Father of the universe, but if our scientific methodology and systematize of knowledge do not reflect and honor His Lordship, is it not then we violate His right on the knowledge of the world?


For Christian, a biblical Christian, science can’t be neutral. Knowledge is not neutral. No human action is neutral, for all human action has its motive, namely to glorify God or is not, the righteousness of the action itself, whether it is in tune with truth, and uses or consequence of the knowledge. No human action is done in vacuum. We ought to learn to glorify Him even in our eating and drinking. We are created to glorify Him, and enjoy Him forever. Let us learn and train ourselves that in all we do, we do it for His glory, we do it rightly in accordance of truth, we do it in reverence heart of worship. 

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

哑巴

早上遇到个看不见的
他听见我的雨伞敲击地上的声音
以为我也是瞎子

在想
如果有一天我哑了
我会怎么活?

不能再教书
不能再作翻译
我还能怎么过?

不能再说话
世界      会因此
清静得多吧?

开始学手语
比划着双手      
丰富的脸部表情

新的桥梁
通往另一片土地
认识另一群人

少了可以发出的声音
或者
多了可以听见的音波

少了讲话的时间
多了思考的空间
写书部落的思维

也许
生活会很不一样             别人
或会认为很可怜
很不方便

           那造人
眼瞎
耳聋
目盲
舌哑     
慈怜良善的至智主
岂不能在
他们身上得荣耀么?

也许
那不过是
另一种生活方式
我们     
还是生活在
天父世界里
他必看顾

遗忘的钥匙

刚才到家门口,发现

忘了带钥匙回家
纳闷
郁闷
怎么越来越健忘了呢?

***
想忘了她
但我想 我做不到
只能
保持距离
不想再伤害她
           不想
得罪上帝
盼望这距离
是温柔的
离弃

***

得知她
动了手术
暂时半身不遂
前路不知如何
虽然不熟(基本上可以算是不认识)
还是希望她可以康复

人生无常
某年某月的某一天
人不能知道      
发生什么事情
所以要每一天 
活得好像这就是最后一天
然后
就要站在
创造      拯救      审判人的
上帝面前
交代一生
求主怜悯


***

(写到最后,好像跟那被遗忘的钥匙
没有什么关系呢 >.<|||

Wednesday, April 2, 2014

年少轻狂

那天看见学生的衣服上写着
年少轻狂
那时只是
轻轻地


再回想
原来自己
不再年轻
不能再
轻狂了