Tuesday, December 31, 2013

悼念

今天
你离开两年了
我在同样的地方
同样的时间
(只是不一样的桌子)
纪念你

非死不可
我洗掉了
所以我们的通话记录  
没了
大家继续过生活
只是      不知道
大家心中的伤
愈合了么?

如果你还在
我想
大概
你们全家都已经迁居到澳洲
我就是舅舅
农历新年            我们还会有同学会3.0
了吧?

只是
这都只是
如果

*******

你走了296
原本
会更久
那时你撑了过去
但是就只有两个月

爸还在
昨天他生日
感觉上他还好
只是      心底的事
谁理解呢?

姐还在
上星期她生日
现在在柔佛
相夫教子
应该生活很好吧?

哥还在
还是一样的工作
觉得他比以前更负责任
更有大哥样
这是好事吧?

弟还在
更忙碌于他的射箭教学
昨天他说学生很多
应该更忙            责任更多
大概也比较成熟了咯?

妹还在
听爸说
干了这个月就不做星吧了
会转去小诊所作助手
心想:她懂医疗的咩?

他们     
还不认识主
听过了福音
哥在新年时教训我
不许我再和爸讨论信仰
          主啊
他们有机会吗?

他们的故事

早上七时六分。

迎着冉冉升起的朝阳,有个女生坐在海滩边的椅子上。

轻轻地,他走过去:“***,我有话想对你说。”

她脸上有点讶异:“噢!可以啊!”她稍微挪开身子,让出一点空间。

但,他没有坐下去。
他弯下身子,半跪在椅子边,温柔但坚定地望着她:

***
我不是很果断的人
我的过去,很复杂,很混乱
所以
我考虑了很久
现在才决定告诉你
我喜欢你

虽然你不是世界小姐
你没有白哲的肌肤(也许你没有用SK-II
没有魔鬼的身材
你不是超级高材生
           在我眼中
你是世上最美丽的女人
你爱上帝            
甘心服侍人
你不懂读心术 
明白了解我
常常在我最需要的时候
给予最适当的鼓励
无论是劳力       还是
安静的陪伴
我发现
我需要你
没有你
很难想象我会怎么活下去!

所以
虽然我过去常在蝴蝶丛里打滚
因此(也许)让你没有安全感
虽然我现在没有很丰厚的收入
因此不能给你丰裕舒适的生活
虽然我未来不懂会到哪去服侍
因此不能给你确切的生活方向
甚至你很可能(我有预感)
需要陪我四处飘荡
过着清苦的生活
或在我外出的时候
一个人独守空闺

但是
我爱你
我愿意 无论
健康疾病
富贵贫穷
顺境逆境

保护你
照顾你
尊重你
爱你
直到
死亡将我们分离之际

因此
(他从口袋里掏出一个小盒子,然后取出里面的小圈子)
***
嫁给我
好吗?


Wednesday, December 18, 2013

Curiosity to the glory of God

“The secret things belong to the LORD our God, but the things that revealed belong to us and to our children forever, that we may do all the words of this law.”     
~Deuteronomy 29:29

It is the glory of God to conceal things, but the glory of kings is to search things out.
~ Proverb 25:2

Oh, the depth of the riches and wisdom and knowledge of God! How unsearchable are his judgments and how inscrutable his ways!
“For who has known the mind of the Lord, or who has been his counselor?”
“Or who has given a gift to him that he might be repaid?”
For from him and through him and to him are all things. To him be glory forever. Amen.
~ Romans 11:33-36

Curiosity, a desire to know (Merriam-Webster), is part of human nature. We want to know many things. But how we use it? Can we know all? So often we are frustrated because so strong the desire to know something but we just can’t know it, things range from ‘does he likes me’ till ‘why does God created Adam and allow him to sin in the garden of Eden, having already knew he will sins?’
1.       Curiosity is good.
a.       We being image of God, like God, posses intellectual ability. (Col 3:10 ‘knowledge’)
b.      Jesus invited us to search, means to investigate, and that implies curiosity. (John 20:27)
c.       It is our glory to be able to search through things. (Pro 25:2)
2.       Limits of curiosity
a.       God did not tell us everything. (Deut 29:29)
b.      We just can’t fathom God’s depth of wisdom. (Romans 11:33-36; Isa 55:8-9)
c.       Human mind is a created, limited, corrupted mind. (Isa 40-43)
3.       Possible answer to questions prompted by our curiosity
a.       God had provided answer in the bible.
b.      Bible doesn’t make it explicit, but could draw conclusion or implies by what is obvious. (e.g. Triune nature of God; Divine and human nature of Christ; etc)
                                                               i.      Questions pertain to history and science could be search through study of archeology and scientific methods.
                                                             ii.      But no guarantee of success!
c.       Bible does not tell us, nor can search through by means of scientific method, but we will know when we see Him face to face. (1 Cor 13:12) e.g. when did God created angels? How wide is the universe? How would we really look like in resurrected body?
d.      Remain mystery even till then. God is God, man is man. We won’t become god when we enter heaven!
4.       Purpose of curiosity
a.       Curiosity is not given for the sake of curiosity itself, neither is it given to make us feel dumb or frustrated.
b.      Reflection: is the feeling of frustration come from lack of trust of wisdom of God? Or human arrogant that think we ought to know everything, and God should tell us everything? (possibly influenced by the so-called ‘right to know’?)
c.       To see the transcendence of God and produce humility in us, which ultimately bring us to our knees and give Him the glory that due Him. (Job 38-42:6)
5.       Right use of curiosity
a.       To search through the scripture to know what God wants us to know in order to obey. (Deut 29:29b; 2 Ti 3:16-17)
                                                               i.      Theology – knowing God
                                                             ii.      Spirituality or piety – honoring and trusting God
                                                            iii.      Holy life – obeying God’s commandment
b.      To search through the world to discover how intelligently, meaningfully and wonderfully God had created the universe, so that
                                                               i.      We can work through or rule the world in a God-honoring way (Gen 1:26,28; 2:19-20a)
                                                             ii.      So to amaze at His creation and bring Him praise (Psalms 8:3-4)
c.       To search through the works and words of God and be amaze at the things that which we don’t know, so to produce greater humble-ness in us. (Job 38-42:6)
6.       Conclusion
a.       God gives us curiosity to motivate us (actually, He invited us) to search through His words and work.
b.      Hence we should be diligent in understanding His words and works.
c.       The purpose is not to know all thing (which is a impossibility) but
                                                               i.      To glorify Him by knowing how wonderful and marvelous His deeds (Psalms 19:1-6)
                                                             ii.      To enjoy Him
1.       by knowing and obeying His commandments (Psalms 19:7-14)
2.       by making good use of the natural law He created
d.      For the things that we cannot search through or understand, let us admit our limits and marvel at His transcendence wisdom.

e.      Let us not be frustrated, but learn to come before Him in prayer and be content with what He given us now. (Psalms 107:9)

梦秋夜

不再梦环秋夜
不是因为
情已逝
而是学会
放下
前进
人生
总会有那么几个
你爱她                
她不爱你的人
何必
纠缠不清
作茧自缚
就如诗人
徐志摩所说


我是天空里的一片云,
偶尔投影在你的波心——
 你不必惊异,
 更无须欢喜——
在转瞬间消灭了踪影。
 
你我相逢在黑夜的海上,
你有你的,我有我的,方向;
 你记得也好,
 最好你忘掉,
在这交会时互放的光

后记
环明年会和她的雄
共结连理
祝福他们

Friday, December 6, 2013

选择

我们这一代
常说
“这是我的选择!”

是的
我们是
自由的
我们可以
选择

但是
又有几个人
明白
每个选择所要
付上的      代价
承担的      后果?

年轻时
常听人说
选你所爱的
爱你所选的

我也曾 骄傲地
这是我的选择!
我不后悔!

只是
当我们 
停下脚步
后头看一看
真的
没有那么一件事
你不后悔
当初的选择?


惟愿
我们今天的选择
明天
不会后悔

如果真的
后悔了

           一把泪
           一口气
然后
继续前进
不再做会让
自己后悔的
选择